April 1969. Fire Base Diamond, Vietnam. I was ordered to go outside the perimeter and set up a listening post facing the Cambodian border. I’m with 7 other guys, we have Claymore mines, an M-60 thirty cal. Machine gun, an M-79 grenade launcher, and seven M-16 rifles. It is still daylight and we find a dry canal (it’s dry season). First we set out the Claymore mines 5 of them in front of us and one on each end of our canal. Then we set the machine gun near the center of our canal and wait for dark. About 10 o’clock I’m looking through our Starlight scope and see at least a hundred enemy soldiers coming straight at us. We call in artillery and mortars, killing several of the enemy. When they get close enough we fire our Claymores ( 700+ ball bearings come out from the curved mine) like a shotgun blast. The enemy go around us to get to the Fire Base. We set the Claymores on the ends of our canal and they move further from us. One guy sees me and is shooting at me. I shoot and kill him. In the morning after the fight is over I go to see if he is dead. He is.
I have to live with this deed every day of my life. It is never very far from my mind, ever.
How can anyone kill another person and not wish it had never happened? I know it was war and he was shooting at me, but I keep wondering , who is taking care of his family? Maybe there is something wrong with me because it affects me so much.
Now think about Michael Brown, a teenager unarmed walking in the street in Ferguson Mo. Do you think Officer Wilson is feeling the way I do about the man I killed? I don’t. I don’t think he has the same kind of conscience that I have. After all he shot an unarmed kid several times. I shot a guy who was shooting at me and still feel bad.
Maybe there is something wrong with me but I’m sure there is something wrong with Officer Wilson. I dislike making judgement of others. In this case I have to find fault with what transpired that day in Ferguson. Leaving Michael lying there in the street for 4.5 hours just adds to the feeling that the police don’t care about the people they are supposed to protect and serve.
Are the FPD covering up something? Why is there not a police report ? There are reports for everything they do but not one for this shooting?